Happy International No Diet Day!

It’s that time of year again, folks. As Fillyjonk wrote two two years ago:

Of course, we strive to make EVERY day No Diet Day, but if you’ve been teetering on the edge, today is the day to try it out for 24 hours and see how you function when you make peace with food. Or maybe it’s time to spread the word to some friends, or post a flyer next to the stats for your office “Biggest Loser” competition. Or maybe it’s just a day to eat a big piece of cake.

This time last year, we were celebrating by getting Lessons from the Fat-o-Sphere to the number one spot on the Powell’s bestseller list. Of course, I happen to think that’s an appropriate way to celebrate every year, so feel free to try again. (Kidding, kidding. But it does make a lovely gift.) Tell us how you’re celebrating in comments.

103 thoughts on “Happy International No Diet Day!

  1. Burrito! I’m eating a burrito for lunch – with cheese and sour cream.

    I ate the last of the brownies last night, or I’d eat one of those after my burrito. From the looks of the kitchen, banana & honey is all the dessert I get until I get to the store again.

  2. Last night I wrote a brief post on why I don’t diet. Since every time I’ve tried that in the past it’s been pages and pages of diet history, I consider “brief” and “to the point” to be quite the win ;)

    At lunch I plan to walk over to a nice restaurant for a salmon salad and possibly a glass of wine. Because it’s a treat and I deserve it, and salads aren’t punishment for being fat! :)

  3. I’m going out for BURGERS (yes, maybe plural?) and unlimited fruit snacks. Thanks for the reminder!

  4. Here’s the weird thing. Not ONLY is it No Diet Day,(which I will be celebrating by swallowing enough Toblerone Chocolate to boost Switzerland’s annual income), I also had the sheer good fortune to wake up to The Weather Girls, “It’s Raining Men” on my radio alarm. Hilarious.

  5. I’m finishing my thesis. I’m too stressed to even consider giving a second, critical thought to what I eat. All my critical thoughts have been eaten by that other part of my brain.

  6. By eating delicious chocolate pudding. The woman who works in my company’s cafe said, “That’s enough for two servings!” I told her I’d happily be eating it all in one sitting.

  7. Because it’s “No diet day”, I haven’t even given a thought to what I am going to eat, but it will probably involve leftover roast beef since it’s in the fridge and my car is in the shop. However, I did celebrate last night with a chicken cheesesteak, and with Thai food two nights ago.
    Time to go watch the “It’s Raining Men” video on Youtube. Love it!

  8. I may go have a burger, fries and milkshake for dinner if this paper cooporates and gives me the ten pages I need in time. Perhaps I will even spike the milkshake with some *gasp* booze!

    I was also considering a burrito for lunch, but both A and B might make me a little queasy….hmmmm.

    Husband is “celebrating” by (again) bitching out the nutritionists at his peds rotation for REPEATEDLY not putting the anorexics on his floor on enough calories/day. Because 1200 cals/day is enough for an 88 pound, 5’6 teenage girl, dontcha know *facepalm.* Apparently this is a thing, a thing that happens ALL THE TIME, that the less fatphobic doctors have to repeatedly bitch out the staff nutritionists over.

  9. Husband is “celebrating” by (again) bitching out the nutritionists at his peds rotation for REPEATEDLY not putting the anorexics on his floor on enough calories/day. Because 1200 cals/day is enough for an 88 pound, 5’6 teenage girl, dontcha know *facepalm.* Apparently this is a thing, a thing that happens ALL THE TIME, that the less fatphobic doctors have to repeatedly bitch out the staff nutritionists over.

    Dude, I’ve read a lot of appalling things this week, but that definitely takes the cake. Stunning.

  10. @annimal “Time to go watch the “It’s Raining Men” video on Youtube. Love it!”

    Ohhhhh excellent!Inspired by my radio alarm moment, I had a watch of the Weathergirls video today on Youtube and I was not left wanting. Enjoy!

  11. slogging through the best homemade mac-n-cheese recipes in hopes of finding one with a good crumbly topping to cheesiness ratio.

    That just made my stomach growl. Time to leave the computer. Off to get pistachio-mascarpone gelato, or some other delightful concoction!

  12. Thanks to Tuesday’s root canal, I’ll be having soup and ibuprofen today. I’m thinking I should have some banana & honey, too, because that sounds yummy. And soft.

    *follows annimal to youtube*

  13. Today I got to work and thought, “I’m hungry. Say, I think I forgot to eat breakfast!” So I made a run to QuikTrip with a coworker. Then, standing at QT I realized: “Oh, wait, no, I didn’t forget to eat breakfast, it’s just that what I had wasn’t very filling.” (It was a few bites of leftover penne that I shared with the dog.)

    So I bought a sausage, egg, and cheese croissant. YES, MICHAEL POLLAN, I BOUGHT FOOD FROM A PLACE THAT SELLS GAS AND IF YOU DON’T LIKE IT FEEL FREE TO LICK MY WRAPPER.

    Anyway, I didn’t realize I was celebrating No Diet day, but it sure is a far cry from recording every bite of what I eat in a journal and budgeting how many freakin’ points I’ll need to save if I want to have one ounce of cheese on my dinner. (Whenever I think about dieting again, I keep coming back to the points value of cheese. I sometimes yell “EXCEPT FOR ANYTHING THAT PROMINENTLY FEATURES CHEESE, YOU ASSWIPES!” at Weight Watchers commercials that say you can eat what you love.)

  14. I’m going to finally delete my account with what has been for the last year my “other” SP – SparkPeople. Letting going go of diets and counting and all that bullshit forever – hooray!

    Also I’m gonna make cupcakes. With peanut butter frosting.

  15. Time to go watch the “It’s Raining Men” video on Youtube

    I play SingStar (karaoke game for playstation) and they actually have this video available for download, so of course I downloaded it. Maybe that’s how I’ll celebrate INDD, with a nice sing-along featuring the Weather Girls, Adele, The Gossip and the Mamas and the Papas… and some pathetic renditions of Aretha Franklin songs.

  16. Hah, A Sarah, I did the exact same thing. Chanced to be out early in the morning, knowing I was facing an unpleasant doctor’s appointment, so I told myself that in fact I would have that sausage biscuit I almost never eat, thankyouverymuch. And I did, and it was good, and you know what? It DID help me feel better about getting a large needle full of steroids jammed into my shoulder. Coping techniques: why yes, sometimes they are what’s for breakfast!

    Don’t hate on gas station food, though. Here in the South, everyone knows that the best chicken strips and sausage biscuits and barbecue come from gas stations — preferably, the kind that sells bait and fishing poles too.

  17. I’m eating a Rueben sandwich for the first time. Thousand island, coleslaw, Pastrami, BUTTERED TOASTED BREAD, oh lordy. (Also, this is apparently only a variation on the traditional, not the actual Rueben, but it’s still delicious). ((Also, I hope I’m not the only one who googles new food after trying it at a restaurant…))

    I didn’t even know it was No Diet Day, but that’s what I try to do every day (or try NOT to do, as the case may be) so this just makes me feel extra warm/fuzzy.

  18. Woo-hoo, No Diet Day! I wasn’t deliberately celebrating, but I’m retroactively declaring the work bridal shower baklava and M&Ms part of my celebration. And the Healthy Choice meal and an orange pepper I had for lunch.

    Because those are a quick lunch and surprisingly tasty, especially when I’m not limiting myself to eating only what’s in the box, but snacking as I need. And because “not dieting” is not somehow synonymous with “drowining in a vat of chocolate syrup with Twinkies floating on it. (Do Twinkies float?)

    Yay for eating what I want, and now back for another piece of baklava!

  19. ICE CREAM FOR LUNCH!

    I just had that, and then I come on over here and see that it’s the perfect day for it.

  20. @chava – That isn’t as shocking as it should be. I don’t know for certain, but when I was an in-patient at a facility that treated EDs I’m quite sure that they were giving me tiny, tiny portions. (Not as small as I wanted at the time, of course, but smaller than my body actually needed for recovery purposes.) Thank goodness there are people out there like your husband, that’s all I can say.

    I’m celebrating No Diet day by going out for Indian food with my mom and then getting gelato across the street. Also, I’m sitting in bed RIGHT NOW drinking tea and eating chocolate.

  21. I had yogurt, shredded wheat & bran, and coffee because that’s what I wanted to eat. I ate two tacos and a few tortilla chips for lunch because the coworker I walked to lunch with was craving quesadillas. I won’t have a real dinner tonight because I have choir rehearsal, so I’ll snack on something before I leave the office and snack on something else when I get home tonight, I’m thinking pretzels and tea before and blackberry cabernet sorbet after.

  22. Oh hey! Happy International No Diet Day!

    I didn’t know, as I see some people have already mentioned they didn’t either. However, I’ve celebrated by:

    -going grocery shopping to get some cilantro, green onion and limes to make a thai-peanut salad for my little family for dinner tonight

    -going to my favourite cheap sushi place and ordering cucumber roll, avocado roll, and 2 veggie cones just for me…

    -and coming back home to sit by the computer and eat some dark chocolate.

    My life is ALL YUM, ALL THE TIME. :)

  23. I always have trouble with questions like these.

    (Oh boy, I am turning into the “respectfully dissenting” commentor, and I’d better state upfront that I love everything you do. For serious.)

    I often eat past the point of feeling full as a means of self-soothing. Coupled with the fact that I have type 1 diabetes, that’s a dangerous habit. I don’t like it; it feels really good at the time, but afterward I have a food-hangover and a high blood sugar level, and it feels pretty ghastly and unhealthy.

    I struggle with this. I know dieting is not the way to go, but I can’t get around the fact that I have to make careful choices around what/when/how much I eat. At the very least, I ought to track it more carefully. All of that… is kind of like dieting. Which sucks — I do not like having to be that mindful. I’m still cultivating those skills.

    So celebrating no diet day isn’t something I can do with abandon.

    (But I totally had a pack of sour straws for dessert today. And I totally took insulin for them and will test later to make sure I have had my fun in a healthy way. Which is good, in its way.)

  24. @ASarah “Whenever I think about dieting again, I keep coming back to the points value of cheese. I sometimes yell “EXCEPT FOR ANYTHING THAT PROMINENTLY FEATURES CHEESE, YOU ASSWIPES!” at Weight Watchers commercials that say you can eat what you love.”

    I believe I am now experiencing a non-romantic crush. Please accept my thrown posy.

  25. Today I woke up at noon (after staying up until three working the night before), made myself a cup of coffee, reheated the beluga lentil salad I made last night and topped it with a beautiful, perfectly poached egg. Then I had seconds. And for dessert I’m going to have a fat slice of the meyer lemon buttercream cake I made a couple ago and a tall glass of horchata I just made this morning. I didn’t count jackshit, I haven’t had a bathroom scale for two years.

    I think I’m going to go to the fried chicken and waffles place for dinner tonight. YEAH.

  26. All of that… is kind of like dieting.

    Ah, but it is not dieting in the sense we’re talking about here. I mean, a lot of the experience of sucky restriction and mind-numbing attention to detail is similar (and I’m really sorry you’re stuck with that), but the mindset is really all I’m talking about. And eating carefully to A) keep yourself alive and B) keep yourself from experiencing immediate negative effects does not come from the same place as eating “carefully” because you think you’ll be worthless until you’re thin.

  27. Emsy, have you read Dr. Bacon’s actual book Health at Every Size? She actually has some exercises where you track what you eat in the context of how hungry/full you are before and after and how the food you eat makes you feel. It has a very non-judgmental approach, but is supposed to help you figure out the best way for you to feed your particular body. It might be helpful for your situation.

    And I’m sure everyone here supports you in trying to figure out the best way to feed yourself. International No Diet Day doesn’t mean that you have to go out and eat cake; if you read the link that Kate provided, it was started to call attention to the dangers of weight-loss dieting/surgery and to celebrate body diversity. I think you can totally participate in that sense!

    And hurray for sour straws!

  28. I had peanut butter fudge for lunch. Rather more peanut butter fudge than my system was entirely happy with, but that’s ok. Next time I will remember that fudge is denser than I think it is, and I will have something suitably delicious and fiber-containing for dinner so that my stomach does not continue to object to the fudge :-)

  29. I think i might make a banana cream pie. (the kind with the pudding and the cool whip) Largely because it 1. embodies all that is wrong with the american diet, see as I assemble ingredients from several different plastic containers, and 2. is delicious.

    Also i might splurge on a couple of cough drops.

  30. I ate a “Lean” meal for lunch. But only because I left my delicious homemade salmon cakes and garlicky green beans in the fridge.

    And I only bought the “lean” because they’re 95 cents and I am the Mayor of Brokassington.

    Howevah!! Tonight we’re having chicken and rice stuff and I’ma make some brownies. Hmph.

  31. @Sskipstress – blackberry cabernet sorbet after.

    Oh…my. I feel faint. That sounds wonderful.

  32. Y’all are awesome. My comment was a bit of a whine, I know: “FINE, you guys all go and eat BABY DONUTS and have FUN. I will be sitting here in my CAVE OF WOE.” So thanks for the venting-space.

    @Kate
    I think I am going to print that out and look at it when I suddenly get all worried that I’m a “traitor to the cause” because I have to manage my diet.* Doing what is right for my health is a powerful act.

    (And OH LORD, I could go on for days about the people who suggest I try magic diets which will make my diabetes go away, or the people who ask me if I should be eating that,* or the people who think I got stuck with this because I ate too much candy as a child.)

    @567Kate
    Adding it to the Amazon queue! I’ve actually just started reading The Pathway by Laurel Mellin, which is providing me with some good insight on the behavior pattern that’s really at the root of my self-soothing stuff. Of course the language sounds a little cultish sometimes, but so far reading has been useful. (I’m only like 30 pages in, though. And I can’t tell whether she fat-shames or whether she’s talking about fat-shame that just… exists.) But yeah, I definitely need to learn how to recognize being full… and then not getting so antsy that I keep eating despite being satisfied. Sounds like Health at Every Size is a good guide to that.

    @Living400lbs
    Word. Exercise isn’t punishment, period! (Says the girl who hasn’t worked out in so long that her heart was like, “wait, you want me to go HOW fast?” at the gym yesterday.

    *diet as in “that which I eat,” not “crazy plan to attain nirvana by eating only acai berries and straw”

    *Big thanks, Shapers, for making me realize that I don’t have to take that shit.

  33. blackberry cabernet sorbet???

    AWESOME.

    @ Emsy–

    Totally get where you’re coming from. I’m going through a period where I have to watch how much I eat in the opposite direction–and really, while the food is nice and tasty and I’m appreciating it more than I was a few weeks ago, when I first read the post my reaction was “No diet day…does that mean I can take today to Just Not Eat? Please????”

    So take heart, we’re right there with you!!

  34. I have some of those Pillsbury quickbread mixes. I’m going to make banana bread OR muffins. So excited :D Caaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarbs.

  35. @Emsy: I feel your pain. Seriously, I was just diagnosed with type 2 diabetes a month ago, and I am starting to feel it in a “oh crap, you mean I have to do this *forever*?” kind of way. Things that make me feel satiated include sugar, fat, bread, pasta, potatoes… Guess what I’m not supposed to eat very much of? Sigh. A belly full of cucumbers and broccoli (while delicious) doesn’t really stave off hunger for long. Plus I’ve always been wonky around food — feeling like I can’t get enough or worried that someone else is going to get my share, that kind of thing — and this situation is Not Helping.

    Today, however, I unwittingly celebrated No Diet Day by having a small amount of ice cream with lunch. I hoped it didn’t mess up my blood glucose too much, but if it did, well, I was hungry and I tried to get full. I may just have to keep trying for another strategy to deal with hunger.

  36. Snarkys – mac ‘n’ cheese sounds super good now. With some kielbasa… mmmm… sounds like I just made plans for dinner!

    Faith – Off Topic, is that your tat in your picture? It is sooooo pretty. I’ve been thinking about doing a trio of roses but haven’t figured out a way that wouldn’t look cliche, yours looks perfect.

    I didn’t know it was INDD until just now, but since I’m not dieting, it looks like I still win :)

  37. slogging through the best homemade mac-n-cheese recipes in hopes of finding one with a good crumbly topping to cheesiness ratio.

    I hope I did those html codes right.

    Macaroni and cheese with crab meat. Just heard of this yesterday and now cannot stop dreaming about it!

    yummmmmmmmmmmmmmm

  38. @chava

    Much love. I have a close friend who was once in your boat, and there was a time we were both so oppositely fucked up about food that we couldn’t talk about it with each other. So if one of us was having trouble, we’d just say “gahh…. food-drama!” and just sort of commune that way.

    @Daphne B.
    Also much love. I have like 60 jillion blog recs for you. The D is super fucking annoying, but it is workable. Seriously.

    Actual celebration of INND: going out tonight and drinking Snobby Beer!

    (Did I mention y’all are rockstars? Viva la Shapely Fucking Prose!)

  39. One of my favorite things EVER is penne vodka. Every time I get it, I eat it really fast, and it’s really delicious, and I always think, “Damn, I should have gotten two.” Tonight, I think I will actually get two. But I will not eat them fast BECAUSE- if I get full, I will have one, maybe one and a half, for the next day.

    Also- drinks! Nobody’s mentioned drinks that we’re not supposed to have because they have more calories than food. I am getting ginger ale, lemonade, and orange soda. Maybe I will mix the ginger ale and lemonade together. That will taste amazing. I will have to get two of all three as well.

  40. I’m going to eat food. Mostly plants. Not too much. As in, until I feel satisfied. Same as every other day.

  41. I’d completely forgotten about this, but now that I know, I think I’ll have a cookie with my sandwich tonight. And I’ll keep using my food scale to make sure that both cake pans have equal parts batter when I bake.

  42. International No Diet Day, eh?

    Every time I try to diet, I end up very nearly starving myself.

    I keep that in mind every time I look in the mirror and declare myself “fat”.

  43. Earlier today I was thinking about women I’ve met who REFUSE to let go of the stranglehold they have on their diets. When I mention Intuitive eating, they recoil in horror and regale me with visions of stuffing themselves with every fat, sugar, and calorie-laden food known to humankind. And when I ask what will happen after that, they can’t answer, because the thought of eating a single ounce of full-fat cheese is so frightening, forbidden, and intoxicating that their brains simply shut down.
    Why do we assume that ending dieting and eating what we want only consists of “losing control” and stuffing ourselves with all of the previously-forbidden foods? If these women were to TRULY think about it or even-GASP!- try it, they might just discover that, yes, they want a cheeseburger. And some blueberries. And some salad. And later, maybe some ice cream. If they give themselves permission to eat what they want, they will actually enjoy it and, rather than rush to the treadmill to “burn it off” or starve them selves the next day, they will learn to listen to their bodies, to feed themselves well, and to realize that hunger and eating are natural, necessary elements for survival. And that food is MEANT to be enjoyed.

  44. I’ve been craving fudge. So I made some… and was eating it when discovering this most wondrous of holidays. I’m thinking appropriate celebration might require going out to dinner because nothing says Fuck Dieting like garlic fries washed down with an incredible IPA.

  45. I had no idea this was International No Diet Day! In a happy coincidence, I ended up celebrating anyway, along with celebrating last week of classes. My aide, my sister and I went to an epically awesome Indian lunch buffet in Canoga Park. If anyone else reading this thread lives in the area, the restaurant is called Moksha. Everything there is delicious. And what’s a special meal without a dessert? I ordered gulab jamun (round dumpling-ish things soaked in an aromatic spiced syrup and served piping hot, swimming in said syrup), even though the buffet had two other desserts available, because I wanted gulab jamun. It was heavenly, both the dessert and the freedom to order it without feeling like a Bad Fatty.

  46. Had a can of coffee for breakfast because I woke up too late to have more. :/

    Went to a pizza place for lunch and had some kind of pasta with tomato sauce and cheese on top and with eggplant. When I asked the guy at the counter what that item on the menu was, I thought he said “it has eggs,” not “it has eggplants.” ‘S still OK, I like both. :)

    Had green onion & yogurt chips and milk and orange juice (not at the same time) later.

    Will probably graze around the kitchen and see what I find for dinner. ;)

    “…Husband is ‘celebrating’ by (again) bitching out the nutritionists at his peds rotation for REPEATEDLY not putting the anorexics on his floor on enough calories/day. Because 1200 cals/day is enough for an 88 pound, 5’6 teenage girl, dontcha know *facepalm.* Apparently this is a thing, a thing that happens ALL THE TIME, that the less fatphobic doctors have to repeatedly bitch out the staff nutritionists over.”

    WTF?!

    The only way that can remotely begin to make sense is if it’s only in the very beginning of an anorexia patient’s treatment and the cals/day figure slopes upward from 1200/cals. I remember reading in some WWII history book that out of the people freed from concentration camps, some were given Red Cross boxes the day they were freed and some of *these* people promptly ate all of those full rations (you’d think that would be healthy, right? I don’t blame them either) and died of the physical shock of going from starvation to plenty abruptly instead of gradually. I’ve also seen some new cats in animal shelters on “starvation diets” (“we’re not starving them, we’re bringing them back from starvation!”) so they don’t suffer that same shock.

    “…Ah, but it is not dieting in the sense we’re talking about here. I mean, a lot of the experience of sucky restriction and mind-numbing attention to detail is similar (and I’m really sorry you’re stuck with that), but the mindset is really all I’m talking about. And eating carefully to A) keep yourself alive and B) keep yourself from experiencing immediate negative effects does not come from the same place as eating ‘carefully’ because you think you’ll be worthless until you’re thin.”

    Right on! :D

  47. Because exercise isn’t punishment for being fat, either.

    Yes! I was doing strength training at 6:00 this morning. Exercise (that you, the exerciser, want to do and enjoy doing) is win!

  48. Didn’t know it was that time of year again. Not that it matters, I guess, because that’s every day for me. :D

  49. @ Jennifer–

    I asked him about that, actually. It wasn’t it. It’s actually a well documented fuckup in anorexic treatment, apparently, that they are routinely Not Given Enough Calories in hospital settings. He has a patient right now that they are holding at 1800/day because of refeeding syndrome like you mention, but 1200? Not for more than the first little bit. Also, you give phosphates with the food, which helps (we don’t know why, but it does).

  50. @ mcm – Happy Birthday!

    @ Emsy – Kate has it on the money. You’re valuing yourself when you become aware of your body’s feelings and its health. Diets devalue these sensations and encourage us to ignore what feels wrong.

    My fourth grade friends were preparing for their final day of super-difficult standardized maths testing today, so I decided to make some treats for us while we worked until LOOOONG after the school day was over. I cut up mangoes and pineapple and I made about ten batches of different types of cookies. It’s hard being ten years old and having fifteen days of standardized testing before the end of the school year – you end up hungry and exhausted. I love those kids. I considered mentioning to them that it was No Diet Day, but I don’t even want them to hear me say that word. It’s a word that they don’t need in their vocabularies. Perimeter, yes. Diet, no.

  51. Ahem.

    I poked the Nigel and have acquired a more detailed answer on the subject, which is probably worth repeating on INDD, as I don’t want to spread bad info:

    So, apparently a somewhat outdated fear of refeeding syndrome mixed with misinformed ideas about how many calories teen girls actually need all gets mixed together and the teenage anorexics at this particular hospital tend not to get enough calories unless you do battle with the staff eating disorder nutritionist (and apparently its something of a phenomenon elsewhere in the medical community as well)

    You CAN be exceptionally cautious and ramp them up very slowly, but that a) keeps them sick longer and b) keeps them in the hospital longer, which keeps them out of therapy longer, which is worse for them in just about every way.

    Since you’re running labs every 12 hours to check their bloodwork, ramping up their calories is not really that scary a thing since you’ll spot anything bad before it goes too far south, and getting them stable as fast as possible is a very, very good idea.

  52. @ lemonadeandlemoncake – Yes I am! New York City Public School in Harlem. Best. Job. In. World. How do I know? My backpack zipper is covered in lanyards. My notebooks are covered in “Hi Ms Krishna!” And I am covered in kids. Who think I’m comfy to lean on and tell me that I’m squishy as a compliment.

  53. Well, I’m planning to have a giant chocolate bar instead of dinner with absolutely no guilt, but I was planning to do that before I even found it’s No Diet Day. I ate a banana earlier because I wanted to, and not because fruit is punishment for being fat. So yay for no diets! I can enjoy “bad” food without guilt, AND enjoy “good” food simply because I like the taste.

  54. When I woke up this morning, my mind immediately went to its usual just-waking-up, several years post-ED recovery place (that whole OMGI’msofat/what did I eat last night again, and how many calories did it have?/How can I squeeze in more exercise today/etc.).

    However, when I sat down at my computer and saw this post almost first-thing after getting out of bed, I said, out loud, “fuck this shit,” was able to stop beating myself up in the moment, had a Clif Bar and a V8 for breakfast, and went on with my day. I guess this doesn’t seem like much in the telling, but it was a MAJOR victory for me, and this blog is largely responsible for helping me reshape my thinking so that my ED and dieting-related bullshit no longer rule my life.

    Kate, Snarky’s, and everyone else: THANK YOU. I appreciate you all so much. (And, thank you for letting me derail briefly with a male perspective, which I hope isn’t an intrusion…please know that I am acutely aware of the ways in which male privilege have made this process much easier for me).

  55. I’m going out to get some delicious phad thai instead of eating my school’s tempeh stroganoff.

  56. A bit off topic, but for the last few months I’ve been trying to eat up the contents of my freezer and cupboards, and have only been buying produce and dairy. This is partly because I’m unemployed, partly because I’m going to be moving cross-country soon, and partly because my favorite cheap grocery store closed around the time I lost my job.
    I’m a hoarder and I like to buy groceries when they’re on sale, so I had a lot of stuff stashed away in my chest freezer and cabinets. Trying to eat up the supplies has resulted in some tasty meals, but has also helped free me from a bit of pseudo-dieting behavior. Apparently my frugalness trumps most other things. So now, if I want some polenta, for instance, I don’t think about it, I just make it, because I need to use it up. Whereas before I might still ponder if I really wanted all those carbs.
    I’m going to do a delayed no-diet day celebration on Sunday, when my parents are coming over for Mother’s Day and I’m cooking a turkey, making cranberry sauce, and having some leftover stollen (with lots of marzipan filling), all from the freezer.

  57. I had yogurt and copious amounts of coffee for breakfast, 2 slices of really good pizza for lunch, tacos for dinner, and ice cream for dessert! The ice cream was a last minute decision…my mom is visiting until tomorrow, and we (me, moms, and my five year old daughter) decided to celebrate Mother’s Day early, and that meant going out for ice cream after dinner! I didn’t know it was also INDD day, but I absolutely celebrated in spite of that.

    Now I am slightly bummed because I have no pizza in the house. I honestly think I could eat pizza every day and not get tired of it. Pizza is magic!

  58. Oh hell, I have no idea what I ate today– whatever I got at Panera while working on this damned paper– but I know I drank a ton of coffee. I’m full so I must not have dieted.

  59. Oh, and right after I posted my previous post, a Special K commercial came on, something to do with taking off a coverup at the beach when you’ve lost an inch on your waist or some nonsense. That made me realize that I hadn’t opened the bag of malt & vinegar chips I bought a few days ago, so I promptly did so!

  60. Emsy: Type I Represent!

    In the 6 months following getting my 1st insulin pump, I would do WILD FRIVOLOUS things like eat sour straws and coke for lunch, only to have really good blood sugar thereafter. It was AMAZING. But still a micro-managing hassle because UNITS AND UNITS AND TESTING AND BOLUS AND…

    Type I is the most nitpicking condition and I am so not details oriented.

    Some day, I am going to write the book about how “good” diabetes behavior is coded in the language of, and looks an awful lot like the behavior of, disordered eating. (control your sugar, manage what you eat, count your carbs, calculate this, weight that… put it in other contexts, and it IS dieting and/or disordered eating behavior.)

    I commiserate- it’s not always easy and it can make it hard to have a really good relationship with food when your general health relies on weigh and count and measure.

    CAVE OF WOE… are there lots of obsolete glucose meters in your CAVE OF WOE? I always find myself tripping over those and stray syringes when I am exiled to my cave.

  61. Also? I made sherry trifle today. (For a party, because sherry trifle where I come from is exotic food from far off lands. Kind of like Turkish delight.) My trifle is completely without gelatin, though. Just custard, sherry, fruit, and lady fingers. And a lot of schlag sahne.

  62. I considered mentioning to them that it was No Diet Day, but I don’t even want them to hear me say that word. It’s a word that they don’t need in their vocabularies. Perimeter, yes. Diet, no.

    @Krishji, my question (and you know your students better than I do) would be whether they don’t all already have “diet” in their vocabularies.

    I think so many of us here have stories about being on diets as early as first or second grade, or consciousness of parents, usually mothers, being on diets. Myself, I was only a mildly overweight kid rather than an official “fat kid”, so I didn’t get that much bullying about weight from parents/doctors/other kids, but I know I was in third grade when I got my first official diet book. Weight Watchers came three years later, followed closely by the beginnings of the eating disorder. From previous discussions here, I think that wasn’t an unusual experience, even for people who were not far outside the boundaries of “normal” weight.

    Given that kids now are subject to Obesity Crisis and nutrition blah-blah that most of us didn’t get, and that the media culture of today is so much more pervasive and so fat-obsessed, I would suspect that most fourth-grade students have thoroughly absorbed the diet message already. I’m only personally acquainted with a couple kids that age, but I’ve heard fat-talk and diet-talk aplenty from them — last summer, my then-seven-year-old niece asked me which food choice at a restaurant had the least calories, because that’s what Grandmama would want her to eat.

    I don’t know anything about your students, of course, so maybe I’m way off base. However, I would guess that most kids that age could already use a little diet deprogramming.

  63. Last night I had freshly-harvested morel mushrooms stuffed (yes, they were large enough to STUFF) with shrimp-egg-roll-filling. I’m not even going to try to top that today.

    Except I will be stopping for ice cream. :)

  64. I wrote my stepmother a birthday letter that included thanking her for teaching me by example that one need not be thin to be beautiful and wear fabulous clothes.

  65. The anorexia treatment info is making me so sad. It really smacks of “we want them to gain weight, but not get FAT. That would be even worse than the disease.” I’m sure the nutritionists would never explicitly think or talk like that, but I honestly can’t think of any good reason why you would think a growing teenager should be getting by on 1200 calories a day. :(

    Some days I really feel like most people in the nutrition field are completely fucked up. Even though that can’t really be true.

  66. I didn’t realize it was INDD until after I had eaten too much of something that makes me feel oogy in large quantities and thought, “Whoops, I need to be a little more mindful next time so I don’t feel like this.” A year ago I’d have been thinking, “Well, I didn’t mean to eat that much, but overall calories for the day not so bad blah blah blah.” And I’d have spent vast quantities of mental energy doing the calculations, and redoing them, and redoing them. Math is no substitute for listening to my body.

    So I guess I celebrated by blowing off math, because I can.

  67. Argh! I forgot all about it. Good thing I don’t diet (well, except for the whole gluten-free thing, but that’s not a WLD, more of a “so my intestines don’t explode” thing). Yesterday was my grad program’s big student symposium. So I had a steak (mmmm!) at dinner and dessert with both lunch and dinner. And then spinach dip and corn chips at the bar. Not stuff I usually eat (I’m not a big dessert person, for one) but it’s awesome once in a while.

  68. I’m so late for this…but, c’mon, INDD? Awesome holiday, definitely going on the calender!

    I had cheese ravioli with tomato-sausage-green pepper sauce and veggies. Also a yummy blackberry-honey wine.

    You all are just the coolest people ever. This place is such an antidote to all the hate and nastiness floating around on and off the Internet.

  69. @Lucy- Lemonade and ginger ale is wonderful. Even better, IMO, is lemonade and ginger soda, aka golden ginger ale. It’s a much stronger ginger flavor than ginger ale. Closer to ginger beer.

    I… er, had a couple of Michelina frozen dinners. They’re cheap, so I eat ‘em at work, and I just wasn’t hungry the rest of the night.

  70. @ Emma B – Oh, no, I know that my kids have not only been been drowned in every kind of negative body language known to humankind, but we are all people of color, so that makes them even more vulnerable to self-esteem issues. Fortunately, I don’t have anybody avoiding lunch in this group, not yet anyway, and they never turn down treats from me, so that’s one comfort. My school doesn’t have much money, but we have a lot of wonderful positive role models of every size, and there is NO bad body talk allowed around any of us. ZERO TOLERANCE. Anyway, the primary appearance issue in my class is not body size, but rather issues with HAIR. We have had to have some talks about hair.

    Hearing that quote from your young niece breaks my heart! I wonder if she is copying her Grandmama or if her Grandmama has told her that she SHOULD order the item with the least calories. Both of those are tragic.

  71. @Krishji, yes, that’s why I tried to say that I don’t know your students or the context. Your students are fortunate to have good role models who address body and appearance issues with mindfulness!

    Re my niece, it’s both of those. My mom’s really fatphobic, on her own behalf and that of others (that eating disorder of mine didn’t come out of nowhere). My niece has gotten heavier over the last couple years, and while I know my mother means it with love, when I heard that come out of my niece’s mouth, I wanted to cry. I had A Talk with her about how that was officially not okay, and had one with my sister too. It actually worked pretty well in heading off the behavior, but the message had been internalized already. Not like that wouldn’t have happened anyway, I suppose, but I hated to see it start so very young. I’m a parent of three young children myself, and this is one of my major worries for my kids’ future.

  72. The fact that May 6 is my birthday tends to make me forget that it’s also INDD, lol. But I celebrated with a very late breakfast of Eggs Blackstone (like Benedict, but with regular bacon) and hash browns at my favorite diner, and followed that up with a very early dinner at a local Turkish place. One of their appetizers is a spread made with red peppers and tomato paste and walnuts and garlic that is to die for, especially spread on the bread they serve. Between that and the dolmas, I was only able to eat half of my entree (and then the waiter picked up on my bff’s reference to it being my birthday and they gave us a free dessert — filo dough stuffed with sweet cheese and drenched in honey syrup and pistachios, OMG YUM.) So I’ll just have to reheat my kebabs and finish them later today or tomorrow. My life, so difficult! :D

  73. Re: Emsy’s comment about her experience with food – I totally get that! I am also a type 1 diabetic (fist bump) and understand how frustrating it is. It’s hard to find people who do get it!

    That said, I was in Melbourne on No Dieting day and celebrated with a delicious vegetarian breakfast, dumplings for lunch and a burger from an incredible veg*n burger place. Most delicious day ever!

  74. I made some ham and cheddar tortellini with a creamy sun-dried tomato sauce for dinner, and enjoyed every bite. I took the time to think about how pasta used to be the enemy not too many years ago, and simply enjoyed not having those food enemies any more.

  75. @Chava-

    “@ Jennifer–

    “I asked him about that, actually. It wasn’t it. It’s actually a well documented fuckup in anorexic treatment, apparently, that they are routinely Not Given Enough Calories in hospital settings. He has a patient right now that they are holding at 1800/day because of refeeding syndrome like you mention, but 1200? Not for more than the first little bit. Also, you give phosphates with the food, which helps (we don’t know why, but it does).”

    “Ahem.

    “I poked the Nigel and have acquired a more detailed answer on the subject, which is probably worth repeating on INDD, as I don’t want to spread bad info:

    “So, apparently a somewhat outdated fear of refeeding syndrome mixed with misinformed ideas about how many calories teen girls actually need all gets mixed together and the teenage anorexics at this particular hospital tend not to get enough calories unless you do battle with the staff eating disorder nutritionist (and apparently its something of a phenomenon elsewhere in the medical community as well)

    “You CAN be exceptionally cautious and ramp them up very slowly, but that a) keeps them sick longer and b) keeps them in the hospital longer, which keeps them out of therapy longer, which is worse for them in just about every way.

    “Since you’re running labs every 12 hours to check their bloodwork, ramping up their calories is not really that scary a thing since you’ll spot anything bad before it goes too far south, and getting them stable as fast as possible is a very, very good idea.”

    Thank you for the info Chava!

  76. Ooooh, I didn’t even remember INDD and still had a feast. I was cooking my mother’s birthday “dinner,” which was actually an appetizer party. Mom loves to graze! I served:
    - almonds glazed with sugar and smoked paprika
    - roasted red pepper and white bean dip with crudités (grape tomatoes, blanched green beans, blanched broccoli, cucumbers, and carrots)
    - goat cheese topped with tapenade, basil oil, and lemon
    - the chicken liver paté Mom loves, which I make with pan-seared livers, caramelized onions, brandy, and reduced red wine, all processed until fine and then mixed with at least one stick of cold unsalted butter. I serve it with thin-sliced apples, dried cranberries, and arugula; sweet or peppery bright flavors really bring out the rich earthiness of the paté. Mmmm.
    - figs stuffed with goat cheese and baked until gooey, then topped with basil chiffonade and drizzled liberally with thick, sticky aged balsamic vinegar. This was a dish I concocted on the fly because I had some extra goat cheese and some basil sitting around, and some dried figs on the shelf (which I reconstituted by simmering briefly with water and sherry). It is definitely a keeper.
    - mushroom tartlets. These are like super-rich mini-quiches filled with sauteed mushrooms, shallots, and cream, accented with nutmeg and sherry and baked in flaky little pastry shells. Oh, soooo good.
    - and a warm crusty homemade baguette to smear all the dips and spreads on.

    My sister made an enormous and amazingly delicious lemon mousse tart with shortbread crust topped with raspberries… to split between the three of us. Yesssssssssss.

  77. Huh. I was in inpatient treatment at the Renfrew Center (yeah, like the one in Lauren Greenfield’s documentary Thin, except at the Philadelphia campus), and patients who had to gain weight were fed far, far more than that. My friend who was about 5’11 and very underweight was eating three meals a day + three snacks + five Ensures a day. Her metabolism is still very overactive, so the idea of eating 1200 calories a day is absurd. I’m glad Renfrew at least knows what they’re doing.

  78. @Daphne B, Emsy, AnthroK8, and anyone else with diabetes, may I recommend you join the fat diabetics mailing list (http://eight.pairlist.net/mailman/listinfo/fa-diab)? It’s a private, rigorously modified list that provides an excellent space to ask questions, discuss issues, and rant as needed in a warm, fat-accepting environment. Discussions of food/eating as related to diabetes are welcome, but NO diet talk is tolerated. The community there is very experienced, and I have learned more from them than from any medical professional.

  79. I have lurked here for some time, but never had the courage to post. But the timing of this (and I’m reading it a couple days late, please forgive me) is unbelievable.

    I have been, at long last, coming to terms with ED and body image issues with the help of a good therapist. Last week, I came very close to starting a diet (I have not done this in a long time for me). I stopped myself, stepped back and felt the emotions causing this, and just had a normal food day. THis was a big deal for me–all emotional pain tends to lead to body criticism, self-hate, and dieting for me.

    Then yesterday I had to buy a bridesmaid dress, and this brought back many problems for me. In essence, it was a completely triggering event. I went to bed practically in tears and woke up this morning determined to diet. I had only coffee this morning (I always eat breakfast). But I e-mailed my therapist and vented, then had a really delicious, guilt-free lunch.

    All this to bore everyone (perhaps) and say thank you. I didn’t know that NDD existed, but apparently I celebrated it this week.

    Thank you very much for this safe space.

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